i've been hooked to brooke fraser's shadowfeet. i love the lyrics.
Walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that i've never seen
I am changing, less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day
when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things
You make all things
When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
yesterday, margy and i were reminiscing on lifehouse and i just felt like listening to the new single "from where you are" and there was this line in the chorus which said "and i miss all the little things, i never thought they'd mean everything to me". it just reminds me of how we so often let those little things slip by without appreciating them. and when they pass and are gone, we forget them. and one day, these memories get awakened, and we wish we can be in that moment again. once too often, we find ourselves in that place. i wonder what will it take for us to get over our complacent nature and learn to treasure every waking moment.
well, i'm pretty gone. cos i've put myself in this place again. i'm never going to live this down if anyone finds out. if i'm emo-ing, this is why. if i'm being, weird this is why. if i'm easily annoyed, this is why. if i'm insane, this is why. so don't ask me what, i'm gonna be talking to myself about this tonight. yes, i talk to myself when i'm emo.
i miss mugging. i miss project datelines. i miss school. i miss the stupid crazy we do in moments on temporary insanity. i miss laughing uncontrollably for no reason what-so-ever. i miss people and i miss someone. when will i get this life back?
everyday i go and i plaster a fake smile on my face. i feign interest. i tolerate. i wear a mask, and i want to tear it off.