well, the new year hasn't been as bad as i thought it would be. i mean the usual visiting stuff, catching up a little on sleep. oh yes, and the twins had this little birthday thing on sunday. when i'm less lazy, i'll get to those photos.
i've been dreaming too much lately, so much so that i wake up more tired than when i go to sleep. it's kinda frustrating. it's like taking sleeping pills, only your body sleeps but your mind does not. bleah.
at this point in time i'm just really itching to touch a really good piano. i was playing my upright just now and so many keys are spoilt and it's really starting to get really out of tune. i think i should do something bout that. really. i mean, no matter how much people say that its all about the skill, the instrument really plays a part. if what you play sounds as good as its supposed to sound, you just wanna keep playing... but if it sounds like crap, you just wanna stop playing... for me at least. anyone wanna help me out here?
oh yes, i finished the twilight saga. and that places me... erm... totally smitten by edward cullen (i dun think you want me to elaborate on this point, i'll bore you to death). and seth is unbelievably cute... he's my favorite "werewolf" in the book. carlisle is amazingly cool. renesmee is so precious. and alice just seems so fun to be around. right and the guy who plays edward in the movie... rob pattison... he's evolving from just cute to hot. so help me. he just smolders. can't believe he turned down the role of edward cullen cos he thought he was afraid he wasn't good looking enough. as much as edward is described as being as good looking as adonis (some really really really out of this universe good looking greek god), i think he fills the shoes well enough.
i'm just doing this to pass time. can't sleep.
and i'm once again dreading to go back to work. ugh, i seriously need to figure this out. how am i going to figure this out?! and you wonder why i can't seem to really sleep....
and then there's all this stupid stuff going on in a place where it's all this stuff is not supposed to be happening and it's jsut getting really old and tiring. why can't people just understand this ONE simple concept. KEEP IT REAL. that's all it takes. why pretend to be something or someone you're not? why pretend to believe in something that you don't really believe in? why try to mask your true intentions if you think they are so right? goodness. it's just all so dumb, so unnecessary, all so *roars and pulls hair out*. and you wonder why i can't seem to really sleep....